Grill A Christian
Every week the gap year students- now called interns- get the chance to interview a Christian that is invited in. It's called Christian In Focus or lovingly referred to as "Grill a Christian." Well, in all our years here I have never particiapted, but Marc always has. Several months ago I felt like God was telling me that there would be some things that I needed to step out and do even though I'm scared. I began my training course for the crisis pregnancy centre last Saturday (it runs for 10 Saturday between now and May!) so that was the first thing I felt like God was telling me to do. And "Grill a Christian" was the second one. It's kind of interesting because I had never for even one minute entertained the thought of participating because I'm always too nervous and I hate being the centre of attention. I cheered Marc on as he was interviewed each year, but no thanks, I'm good.
In November, I was just doing minding my own business one day and suddenly I thought "I think I'll do Christian In Focus, it would be good for me to do that." WHAT? I laughed at this silly, fleeting thought. No, of course I wouldn't do that. I would be too nervous and would say something dumb or worse, do the ugly cry in front of these guys! No. Nope. Until the sweet lady who organises the guests, emailed me and asked if I would do it...3 days later! I knew I had to do it but I was so scared. So I told her I would, but knew that once we came back from our Christmas vacation I would be so anxious over it. And I have been. Like, oh my word, my stomach hurts nervous. I've been practicing questions for several days in my head- since this is kind of like a hot-seat type thing, I wouldn't know the questions beforehand. Eek!
Sunday rolled around and as I looked at my diary (calendar) for the week I saw it written on Thursday's place. Dread. I prayed, imagined what they might ask and prayed some more. This morning I was so sick I wasn't sure I would make it. Sounds so silly because guess what? It was totally fine. And fun! My interviewer was super sweet and asked some funny, light-hearted questions like Indian food or mexican food? Um, duh! Or seaside or countryside? Brad Pitt or Orlando Bloom? To which I said, my husband is sitting right over there, how am I suppose to answer this? Haha. The good news is that I only choked up a few times on the tough questions and didn't do the ugly cry! Thank you Jesus. So, for 45 minutes I was "grilled" on my faith journey, what God is teaching me right now, all about my family, funny stories and embarrassing stories, who I would invite to tea if I could invite 5 people, etc. I survived, God gets all the glory and hopefully God will use anything I said to encourage our interns. Also, it was so cute, Addie sat at the back of the room with Marc. He put headphones on her while she played games on his new Kindle Fire he got for Christmas. That thing is the best thing ever!
As we were leaving for lunch- I begged Marc to take me out to eat since I had made it through- the lady who had asked me back in November said, "I don't know why I haven't asked you to do this before!" To which I quickly replied, "It must be God's timing, trust me, I would've said no every time!" She then said, "Great, I'll put you down for next year as well!"