Just A Few Things
Thank you for those of you who shared in our excitement about Cerys' special day on Sunday! We truly appreciate it. We've already had a discussion with her after she told her friends at school on Monday about the decisions she made. It was over snack and she got a response that I was kind of shocked to hear. We talked about it last night and however much I wish I could protect her from the comments of others, I know that God is much bigger than any of that and I just pray that He would keep her heart sensitive to Him. Bless her, at 6 years old you think that everyone should be as thrilled as your parents, but that is not the case. Especially in her school!
Some of you have asked about my Facebook page. It's gone. I needed a little break from it, nothing bad or crazy has happened. I have felt for a while that I needed to step away from it but I'm embarrassed to admit that I was scared to do it. I love keeping in touch with everyone, it makes home seem less far away, I love hearing everyones' news, etc. Last week I just decided it was time and that I would not log-on for a while. Well that last about 4 hours and then I thought, well I'll just not comment on anyone's page and just read. Ha. Who am I kidding? I finally decided on Sunday that I would have to deactivate it because as soon as I felt bored, I would want to go click on the FB link on my browser. Pathetic, I know. So, I'll be back I'm sure at some point but not right now. I have to say that after the first few days now I feel a bit free from it- I had loads of time last night to knit and read and do my Bible study, oh- and get in bed by 10:30pm! Rock on!
I just need y'all to know that I get worn out getting my girls to school. On days like today, I can feel my eyes glazing over before we even get out of the front door. Today Addison was with me and that just makes me even more frazzled. She wants to walk all the time, not ride in the stroller and I try to oblige her but some days it's not worth the fight. As soon as you say, hold my hand or come this way- it's over. She's screaming, limp as a dishrag. I can feel the eyes of parents on me but you know, today I just didn't care. Their kids don't act any better! Then as I try to get her back in the stroller, she goes stiff like a piece of cardboard. I just want to scream, "Are you kidding me!" I'm literally out of breath by the time I walk home or get back in the car- if I got to drive that day. This morning we drove (Thank you Jesus and Lottie Moon- so thankful that we are provided a car!) and as I got Addie in her car seat (stiff as cardboard again!) and slipped into the driver's side door, I just locked the doors and threw my head back. Addie was screaming so I just turned up the music and closed my eyes trying to picture my happy place. I don't even really have a happy place, just somewhere other than there right then. After all my efforts and no yelling at the girls, I decided to treat myself to Starbucks. It seems I'm doing that more and more lately- it's my coping mechanism maybe? I use to only go on special occasions, but with Marc being gone so much lately it's become my only saving grace. So, we drove to city centre, found a place to park and headed for Starbucks while Addie screamed "BAK, BAK" - that's her way of saying "walk". I drank my tall cafe mocha with no whip while she happily stared down at the passers-by as if nothing had just happened. She's so cute I could just eat her up, but boy, is she hard work.
I wanted to see if any of you had any suggestions for good books to read aloud to my girls? They are 6 and 4 years old- any suggestions?
My heart is full today. Even overwhelmed at times that I feel teary eyed. So excited and blessed to hear about Joanne and the progress she is making in her recovery. I'm blown away by all the people that are praying for her and I just get so excited to read her husband's updates each morning. God is so good! In the midst of the gratefulness, I'm so burdened and sad for Kate McRae and this little girl. I have cried and prayed for them and long to see God answer with healing on this earth. I sat on the girls' floor while Addie played around me just bawling my eyes out- it's just too much to bear to walk that road. Marc hugged me and told me that was one reason he loved me so much because I'm a compassionate person. While I think that was sweet for him to tell me that it also seems like such a heavy burden. Sometimes my thoughts go toward the "what if's- what if that was one of our little girls? I've never met these young girls but I pray for them daily, numerous times a day that God would hear their parents' cry for help and please heal. Jesus, heal their little bodies and comfort their Mommies and Daddies and siblings.
I know this was random, thanks for reading! Pray for those families please if the Lord brings them to mind today!