Rough Day
So, it's been a rough day for some reason. Actually for a few reasons- a bossy four year old, a newly toilet trained almost three year old, and a fussy 10 week old. Ya, I think those are the reasons.
I'm still not completely over jet-lag. Or am I? I don't really know. I was trying to think about that today- is it jet-lag or just being a mommy and wife? I was even yawning at the gym today, what is that all about? I've decided I need to go to bed a lot earlier than I have been doing. Surely that will help. Surely.
People told me that having a third child would be no different from having two. I disagree. While Addison is a fairly laid back child, she's still a child to be cared for! And dividing my time with all three seems impossible right now. It seems that every time one of the big girls needs something from me, I'm feeding Addison. That's when the guilt creeps in. I feel bad for them because I feel like I'm always giving them an "excuse." I don't want them to resent Addison or me, but sometimes I feel like they do.
Anyway, enough about that. I could share with you that Cerys asked me if I had another baby in my tummy today. Nice. "No, honey that is why mommy is going to the gym twice a week!"
I've just decided that being a mommy and wife are super hard and I will have some good days and harder days.
And I've decided I've never been more in need of Jesus!