Update
I can't believe I would even dream of talking about this on the Internet- but here goes. I went for my midwife appointment today and I'm not even dilated! I was suppose to have a "stretch and sweep" done, but since my cervix is closed she could not do it. I can't tell you how discouraged I am right now.
So, the plan now is to try this again on Saturday (Happy Valentine's Day to me!), then again on Wednesday. Then if the next Sunday rolls around and I'm still pregnant, it will be 2 weeks past my due date- then the hospital is suppose to contact me and tell when I need to come in for induction. And of course this means I will be on the consultant led unit- not the midwife led, which is the place I have been trying to avoid.
I know I sound like a sissy and I know there are many women who go overdue and even have babies behind a bush in Africa. I'm just fighting hard the tendency to say "I wish I was in America right now" mentality. Not that everything in America is perfect, but in situations like this I just want to be in a familiar setting I guess.
Anyway, that's all I got for today. Trying to hold back the tears (and I'm not doing so well in that department) and continue to trust the One who made Baby Girl. And I'm going to stop reading some blogs for a while because "everyone" seems to be having wonderful birth stories in the States and everything is working out like they had planned and I'm feeling a little left out over here. How's that for a pity party?