Am I Weird?

Ok, that's probably not a good question to start out with! Maybe I'm just a little too hormonal/emotional right now, or maybe I'm just a perfectionist. Here is what is bothering me...

I've been learning to knit and sew this last year and have really enjoyed it. But I've also really hated it at times. I have these visions and ideas in my head about how things will turn out and then when I either knit it or sew it, it's not perfect and I get mad. I have so many ideas in my head but feel defeated lately because I know it will not turn out like I have imagined it to be, so therefore, I give up. Right now I'm making a little ballerina wrap (cardigan type thing)  for Baby Girl. I've never made anything like this and while it's kind of fun to have the challenge, I just know it will not look like the picture. I've had to pull it out several times and it's just annoying because in my head, I think I just should just be able to whip it out and it will be just the most adorable sweater ever.

Then there is the whole scrapbooking thing. I use to really enjoy that too and did quite a bit of it at one time.  But I'm so far behind now that when I think about scrapping, I get overwhelmed and shut down and refuse to do any of it. I was trying to explain to Marc about my problem- there are too many options on how to scrapbook- do I do a book for each of the girls? A family book? And then how do I decide what to put in the books? We have so many pictures that I would have to sit down for a few hours and find the ones I want to have printed. Do I scrap every single thing about their lives or just the big things- like birthdays, Christmas, etc. I have WAY more pictures of my pregnancy with Cerys, like a weekly picture of my growing belly- and maybe I have 2 pictures of my belly with Bailey. So do I scrap every picture for Cerys' book and then Bailey will not have very many, etc.

See, it is just crazy. I'm way too much of a perfectionist probably, so therefore I just tend to shut down and not do any of it. Then I feel a huge amount of mommy guilt over the scrapbooking ordeal- what if I die and my girls have no record of anything because their mommy didn't take the time to scrapbook about their life?!?! 

So there you have it. If you've read the blog at all you will know by now that I have issues- but this really confirms it for y'all doesn't it? :)   I need to take a chill pill.  And I wonder why Cerys gets so OCD over drying her hands off, her hair clips, and many other things! She's a perfectionist like me and I'm trying desperately to teach her that things do not always have to do be perfect. 

Am I the only one that thinks like this? For those of you that scrapbook, how do you do it and keep up with it? For those of you who knit or sew- should I focus on just one thing and try and get better at it or just keep doing what I'm doing? 

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