Oh me, Oh my!

UPDATE 2: Well, tonight was a tiny bit better, but she still tried to pull the same thing on us. She is using going to the potty now as her excuse to constantly get up. And when we don't let her go, since she's already been to the toilet, it's like WW3 breaks out in her room. Not cool. Anyway, I really really appreciate all the comments, and prayers. Thank you so much!

UPDATE: Thanks for the love y'all! We've just got started on another day, so we'll see how it goes. She did have some episodes of "terrible two's" but NOTHING like I've experienced last night. It was a case of, we told her something and she did not like it one bit, so she refused to stay in her bed and it all went down hill from there. I didn't know she could scream that loud for that long, so that's good to know I guess. :) Meanwhile, we have no clue how Bales slept through this, but she was sound alseep holding her stuffed lion the entire time. :)

It's 9pm and I'm sitting here at my dining room table looking at a beautiful sunset. The sky is full of pinks and blues and purples. I have candles lit and the house is quiet- except for the hum of the washing machine, oh and the muffled sound of a soccer, er, football game in the next room. Tonight didn't start out this calm.

I'm worn out.

Bailey (14 months) must be having some separation anxiety at the moment. She does not want us to be out of her sight. Very sweet, but very annoying.

Cerys (almost 3!) did something tonight she has NEVER done before, at least to this extent. Oh me, oh my! She had a full-on, loud, thrashing, throw herself on the floor, screaming fit. I have never seen anything like it, except on Super Nanny and I always thought those parents just didn't know what they were doing. That's what I get for judging. I stood outside her door at an absolute loss as to how to handle this one. Marc came up the stairs with wide eyes and I just stared back with the same look. She's asleep now, thankfully. I know she is worn out. I am worn out. I came down the stairs, sat down at this table and cried. Close to an hour she acted like this. The past week or so she has been refusing her afternoon nap- by talking, singing or getting up a thousand times, which she knows it not acceptable. She's been back-talking, and just has quite an attitude over all. I don't know what's happened to my sweet little Cerys. I hope it's a phase. Oh, I hope.

I am wondering if this is "normal." If it's not, what did I do that made her act like this? I'm always tempted to go back to her birth and the separation of her being in the SCBU (Special Care Baby Unit, same as NICU in the states) and maybe we didn't "bond", etc. Marc always brings me back to reality and helps me realize that if I buy into that lie, I will only be miserable. And he's right. He usually is. I don't mind you knowing that. Some couples joke about the other one always being right. I don't have a problem with it, he is right about most things.

Anyway, it's been quite a stressful night. I am praying tomorrow will be better. I am hoping. I am hoping we can have some wisdom in how to handle this new phase without wilting her personality. She knows what is expected of her, she knows the boundaries and I feel like this past week she is trying to test those boundaries.

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