Lessons

Things seem to be pretty slow around here, which is okay I guess. My sweet friend from Texas called yesterday and just made my day! I had been feeling really down, discouraged and lonely and the phone rang at just the right time! The girls were sleeping peacefully upstairs, so we got to chat for about 20 minutes and it just did my heart some good. I was telling her that I often battle boredom here. Sometimes I find myself thinking about all the things I would do if I still lived there. I would probably find a mother's day out and enjoy at least one day of running errands or shopping or whatever! I would eat at Chili's because I love their chicken quesadillas. I would go to Willow Bend mall whenever I wanted and let the girls play in that fun play area. I would visit with my friends while our children played together in the next room. I would go to my brothers' basketball games and enjoy watching Cerys cheer for them. I would go to Barnes and Noble and browse around. There's just so much to do there! I don't mean boredom in the sense that I have nothing to do! I have plenty of house work, laundry, and playing to keep me busy. I was just explaining to my friend that there are so many distractions in DFW that it's easy to run to Target or the mall when I'm feeling down and get my mind off things.

As I thought about that, I realized that this is probably a good thing. Being forced to "deal" with stuff is more like what I've been experiencing. I can't do much retail therapy or eating out here, so I am faced with the real me. And it's hard. Really hard. The Lord has been teaching me so much this past year. It's been a year full of change. And I see so many things in me that I hate. But God has my full attention and we are working through things. I'm so thankful that we have a God who cares about us enough to help us sort through our "stuff" and challenges us to give it all up to Him.

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